'm going for a different approach. 'm going to still keep believing. 'm NOT SAD OR ANYTHING LA.
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Happy yet curious, Curious yet savoring the moment. Savoring the moment yet wonder if this is real. Wondering if this is real yet it feels so right in a way? It feels so right in a way yet wonder again if it's the right thing to do. Wondering again if it's the right thing to do yet again, glad it happened. Glad it happened yet worry for the other competitors.
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Anwsssss,
1)Interviewer: *reads my report book* What is the meaning of Good Efforts Awards? Me: It's like good achievement you've done throughout the whole year. Interviewer: *laughs* How cute is that. Me: *Smile throughout*
2)Interviewer: You're a v happy go lucky girl huh? Me: I am? I guess I am. I think so I am. *laughs& smile*
3)Interviewer: What is the difference between a paramedic& a staff nurse? Me: Paramedic is on the go while staff nurse is always on duty. Interviewer: *nods* Waahh, you're v clever huh. Me: Clever? No laa. I think. Heh.
That was the best moment of the interview. Yes, 'm not quite qualified for it because of my science. But 'm on the waiting list or smth like that i guess!
Working for the next three days including weekends la dey. Fri, Sat& Sun = Afternoon shift ):
Aku tetap di sini. Aku akan menjadi teman siang dan malammu. Aku ingin melihat kau di saat-saat kau berduka, bukan hanya ketika kau bergembira. Kau tidak sempurna, aku mengerti. Tiada sesiapa pun yang sempurna.
I kept on contradicting, over and over again about this one fact. Guess this means 'm wrong? Hmmmmmm...
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Ehhhhh, I didn't know that this malay song, Puspa By St12 is mega awesome!!! Haha, I admit, 'm a malay& don't usually listen to any malay songs, but this definitely caught my attention. Sing to me leh! :D.
(no more smileys already, since nowwww(!), I'm the one who finds it irritating. hahah.)
Interview in about 2 hours time, and 've not bath nor eat my breakfast -.- Wish me luck okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Tag Replies: Haini, Heh. BOTH la. Heh. Shhhhhhh :D. Eh gambar maner!? He he.
Wanie, Cute mcm aku kan? Heeeee.
Yasser& Fitri, Hahahaha. Okay best! :D.
Mashy, He he..yay!!!! :D.
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I like this feeling. It's v comforting. I like the fact that you'll miss me on a random basis. The adrenaline rush whenever we meet. Butterflies still forms in my stomach whenever you text me saying you miss me or we've decided to meet. 'm v happy nowadays. Maybe, just maybe,,,,,, it's because of you.
(:
But then again, my options are still open. Maybe it is still you. Orrrrr maybe it's someone else.
Definitely for now, it's you. You don't have to step up your game. You don't have to be cool. You don't have to have the most perfect hair. You don't have to wear the coolest clothes to make you look dashing. You don't have to have perfect teeth. You don't have to have loads of money. Just remain the way you are right now. Me don't care about status. Me don't care about wealth. Me just care about you.
(:
xoxo.
Monday, January 26, 2009
I am in a good mood today& yesterday eventhough I started early for work and ended late yesterday.
Wanna know why I was in like a good mood and wasn't that tired after working for 6 hours? Haini& Fitri came to visit me! Haha, I was actually shocked. I thought they pass by only.....skali actually they did intend to visit me. He he. Terus happy gituuu that they visit,,, syg krg .
Sorry gambar curi. Heeee.
I ended my shift later than 11pm maybeeee, just maybe because I was in a v good mood to help out w closing and run for the last train......again, but this time alone ): Come on, someone give me a hugggggg Heeee. I was lucky enough to bring my psp to listen to the songs in it while waiting for the train to reach till Lakeside. It seems like if I was in the train alone, the train moves so slow. It doesn't help that I was standing, leaning by the side, in my mind, hoping that the indian man sitting at the v corner wouldn't stare at my leaned butt.
Reached lakeside by 12am and meet up w my friend. Hang out till about 2am, and sent me by the lift. Unfortunately, I had a badddd case of gastric pain because my last meal was at 2pm at that time and I didn't take a break during my work shift. That equals to having a hard time sleeping. If only my friends know about it, confirm plus chop they will scold me. Buttttt I am fat. So i diet la . But I managed to sleep till I woke up around 5am and realised that Kakak was eating Bee Hoon Instant Noodles. AT 5AM! -.-
Eventhough today& tomorrow is a public holiday, I've not made up any plans which is v v boring for me. Who wants to watch a girly flick w me!?!? Bride Wars anyone? :\. 'm soooo bored at home..eventhough I'm in a good mood. Omg, right now I'm soooo hungry but what to eat? Not the tiramisu cake that Kakak brought home please, cause' I've ate two and actually had a tummyache .
On a random note, I my baby pink viewty. Heh. Makin lama aku mengenalinya, semakin aku menyukainya. Hahahaha.
Okay, I know my post has loads of smileys on it. Heeee, fun laaa to put those smileys .
"Tell me why you're so hard to forget. Don't remind me, I'm not over it. Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth. And I really don't know what to do. I'm just a little too not over you."
'm going to get to know everyone else, not just only you. Because I don't want to be the girl who was miserable 2 months ago. But I realised now, 'm not confused. You are. You made a really huge impression that probably made me not forget you. So 'm just going to step out of my comfort zone and socialize more and not stick to one, and that's you .
Don't worry readers, 'm not going to be sad okay! Now lets have a group hug!!!!
Okay, 'll stop w the smileys now. Heeeeeeee.
xoxo.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
UPDATE @ 5.02pm: I've got the letter already! Mega happy right now. Texted Nabb right away! Heh. I can't wait for him to be back so I can tell him the goooooood news! He he :D.
Second Post. 'm like a sad kitty right now, No email. No mail. No call. Rejected by NgeeAnn.
:'(.
I need a very beryyyyyy bigggggggggggg hug right now. 'm sooooo depressed that I haven't eaten my brunch and am not feeling hungry just yet. Why is life sometimes so cruel? ): Okay la, 'm turning into a little green-eyed monster right now. Meeting up w him yesterdayyyyy was nice but somehow or rather, my mind was focused on something else which was hoping that Ibu made a mistake by not checking the mails properly and hoping that 'll find the letter somewhere in the piles of junk letters. But reality's a bitch. So no, I didn't find that letter.
Did I mention that I had changed my phone already? After 2 years& 2 months using the v v v now-outdated MotoV3i, I changed it to Viewty Baby Pink. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. One thing to be happy about, right? No? Haisssshh. But the fun part was someone was jealous and was blown away by my phone's function. Haha, I just had to laugh at his antics. Heeeeeeeee.
Now, suddenly I'm so happy prolly because; 1) 've whipped up an instant noodle pack for myself. 2) Remembering yesterday's incident. Heh.
Nabilah was actually present, but left early so she wasn't in the group picture.
Kbox w incomplete Expressos today. Ate at Jp. Back home early. (:
Bowling cum Faez's Bdae tmw :D.
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I feel soooo neutral right now. I feel like I want to have my non-curly hair again. o.O
p/s, I cant move on, cause that means forgetting everything we had, Instead i keep running back. Cause i keep forgettin that you treat me so bad, So i keep coming back.
Now I find work is zeeee awesome place to be minus the major panic when there's loads of people ordering practically at a fast speed. I love closinggggggg a lot though I only did it once under service. Heh. I love itttttt :D. Yay, might be doing closing on Sun w the cute boy!!!!!! Hahaha. Mega cute laaa he can? Farah knows what I mean ;).
Practically every time he passes by me, I will tend to smile gleefully and if he did talk to me, my respond would just be smiling gleefully and to tell you the truth, I have no idea(!!!!) on what he's talking about. Heeeeee. Whenever he carries the trays, he will pass by me, and I'll smiled then he'll be like,"Why are you smiling always?" &I'll continue smiling. Heh. Okaaaay la, this is not a crush laaaaa. But I am being friendly yknow just by smiling. Heh.
Soooooo the regular workers there are all awesome people if you did get to know them, they are quite friendly. Like Rick who almost every ladies working there calls him abang. Ken is also funny. David looks arrogant and I thought he was arrogant till he talked to me. Heh. Asst Manager& Manager is alright tooooo. Hayati is v v v friendly and patient, if yknow what I mean. &Kamalia is the most awesome person to work with, cause' she'll crack up loads of sarcastic jokes and I actually quite get them. Haha. There's more but I haven't met those people working in the morning shift.. Okay la, I love working w them laaaa and like I said, minus the rush of orders. Heeeee.
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Will be meeting the lepak company to go Sakae to eaaattttttt later. So I didn't take any breakfast except for orange juice& kinder buenoooooo :D.
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I think all my fats are going to my cheeks and body instead of my legs and hands cause' I look chubbier than everrrr and my body suddenly feels fat. D:
On last Sunday, supposedly I intend to follow Ibu to Johore w my aunt in the morning, but then I received a call from Farah and she told us that our manager called us and we had to work on Sunday! -.-
Got up and bathed and Ayah picked Farah up and sent us to work which started at 3.30pm. And we ended at 11.30pm. V v v tired but I obviously didn't mind cause' there was the cute boy working also. Heeee. Mega cute can? :D.After signing out, ran to the mrt w Farah, Kamalia& Hayati since we're afraid to miss the last train. Luckily we got in the purple line train just in time for the green line train which was the last one. Heeee.
Then alighted at Lakeside and bid goodbye to Farah since her dad was picking her up from there, and met up and hang out w him for a whileeeee only. Sent me home by the lift and reached home. Bathed, and watched tv. Slept at about 4am. Heh.
For today, I wasn't working so decided to meet up w the boys& Farah at Min's house for a movie marathon, if that's what you call watching 5 movies straight for 5 hours :|. It was awesome cause' we got to spend some QT w everyone..not sexual QT but friendly QT laaaa.
After which, went to Jurong Greens w Farah, Uzair, Zam, Yan& Azri and we met up w Sol. Hang out for a while and all left at 10pm. Yan sent me till Lakeside and we went our separate ways. So that's all I guess. ^ ^
Random Note: I've submitted and finalized my JAE, JIE, DAE, JPSAE& SAE all by last Thursday.
I'm soooo zeee sleepy........
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2nd Random Note: I'm having loads of great fun time w my v charming friend nowadays. Texting& Meeting Up had never been thaaaat fun ;). Heh. Lots of (L) forrrrrrr you tau. ^^
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& To my friend, hello there. I'm not being a meanie right now, but I don't like like you. I only like you as a friend. Yes, you may say that you know it and you will still want to try. & you are expecting me to say the cliche things like "Gasak kau la." or "Up to u then." but let me make it clear right now. You& Me? No chance. Takde peluang.
So we are better off as friends, ayyyee boy?
Thank you.
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To Hazwani Bte Omar, Goodluck on your new journey at Poly on Monday okay! Think of us every now and then babe! ILY!!!(: Aku masih tgh kire friendship kiter tau, dari zaman kental. Hahaha.. (L)'s for you babe!
Despite my disastrous results, 'm glad that some people made me realised that this isn't the end. I still wonder why people called it 'doomsday' but at the end of the day, it actually isn't. Not that I did call it Doomsday. -_-
Okay this are my options, 1) Higher Nitec Courses (Accounting Or Business Courses.) 2) SAE Dual Certification Course for Higher Nitec in Paramedic & Emergency Care and Nitec in Nursing. 3) RP under DAE for Civil Aviation& Technology And Arts Management. 4) JPSAE and will fill up the dancing section.
That's the most that I can do to get me in the best course or at least poly. Hopefully my JPSAE Application would be approved and they would call me up for an audition....which reminds me what dance item should I do!?!? :S
Thanks to Shahrezuan& Rauf for giving me tips of what I am supposed to decide and do right now especially to Shahrezuan. ^^ Thank you to my friends also for consoling me and I know it's not the end(: Right now, 've done my best and hope that He will guide me to a better journey and insyallah in a polytechic...not that I have anything against Ite la. -_-
Appealing to Polys/Calling up Polys/ Browsing through Ite& Poly Websites/ Applying under DAE/ Deciding whether to go to Ite or Poly.
Not much choices except to go to Higher Nitec :\
Will not be online for days; Working& Deciding on my courses.
xoxo.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Quickie;
In 1 hour and 26 mins time, O level results are released.
:S.
Friday, January 09, 2009
Hello People. I've been waking up pretty late nowadays (read:1pm to 2pm at most), left me feeling like a pig. Seriously. Skipped dinner a lot of times due to stop myself from being fat. So the only proper and heavy meal that I've been taking is just brunch since I don't wake up early anymore. & if I'm still feeling hungry at night, I'll eat two slices of whole wheat bread and I won't feel hungry no more. Yes, this is some tips my dear people(:
1) Training is v v fun and awesome because my 217 batch was all the gerek people adding up w my cousin also. 2) The boys are also fun to be hanging out w because they are still funny as ever. 3) R Day is on the 12th, so fast nak mampos can? I'm not even prepared for the worst. -.- 4) Sp, Np& maybeeee Nyp Open House on Saturday w Lovelies.
xoxo.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
1) Have gain weight. 2) Meet the boys at night recently. 3) Back home by 11pm....or later. Heh. 4) Still finding a night(!) running buddy -_- 5) If still fail, will be going alone then D:< 6) Wondering when's the REAL O level result date(!) o.O 7) Today& Tomorrow; training at HQ, will reach home later than National Curfew(!!!!!!) ;) 8) Having a real bad headache. 9) Can't sleep just now after praying Subuh o.O
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Grrrr~ I am so tired but I can't sleep. Wonder why maynnnnn. On top of that, I've got a bad case of stomachache and body ache. Lol, apparently it kinda rhymes. -_-
Okay lame. Pfft.
Random; Should I be worried for my results? Cause' I don't feel like I am worried, and that's always a bad sign. o.O
M. My uniform size is M. I'm not mega. I'm a small. But no, they told me that they ran out of a Small. So they decided a MEGA for me.
Okay fine, I'm exaggerating the size. I know la that M is medium. BUT I'M A FREAKING SMALL!!! I will look like your bloated ass father if I were to wear that uniform. Kay fine, I'll have to bear w it.
Training starts soon& if you see me, greet me as your father.
I had fun yesterday.
