It's all good.

"'m still good, 'm still fine.

But what's life without a little drama? Just a teensy drama(wouldn't call it drama, but hell it sounds so suspense-y! :P) but it's all good and back to the ol' times."
- updated JeSuisSyaf.bs at 9.27pm.

Some of the bunch,
Going back to Yc on Friday night was the best decision 've made so far! ;).
It made me realized how much I loved high school when I saw the teachers, juniors and the performing arts group(obviously malay dance) performing that day.
I wanted to almost cry when I saw a particular boy performing that night because he reminded me sososososo much like C.B.
No, everything is good between both of us, just that the resemblance was so uncanny that I feel that I was looking at C.B instead of the boy(:

I hugged the 3 other girls when I met them up. First was obviously, Wanie because I met her first. Then, Iqah& the failed attempt to hug Tyra -.- Haha, still I did! Heh. Love the girls so much. Orgasmic(sp?) feeling after meeting them, hehehe so excited la!

Everyone's so different in a way already when I saw them that night. Malay Dance was theeeee bomb okay!(being biased right now, but wth, I was from it what!) Hehe.

After Syf Gala, went to SB Macs for supper! Catch up a lil bit, hehe. But Tyra, Wanie& Iqah left early. So it's Yass and the Bcube boys who actually joined us early just now. Walked back w the boys but I took the bus soon later and reached home at almost 1am. Hehehehe.

Saturday:
Some of the bunch
Went to school in the morning w Nab for Nursing Studies lesson.
Ms Choo was kind enough to give us questions that was not in the previous years' exam papers.
Hopefully, it'll help me w the revision.
After class finished at almost 1pm, the girls(Sasha, Maj, Nab& myself) went to the toilet to fix our makeup for the outing and the boys painstakingly waited almost half an hour for us to finish outside school. Hehehe.
Then we(Sasha, Nab, Maj, Iqbal, Yass, Rab(Baby), Fad, Dzul& myself) went to Tanah Merah to take the train to Marina to eat there first.
Went off w/o Iqbal after that since he got a date w Mira. Hehe.
Headed to Zara, Topman& Fourskin first since Sasha wanted to get a leather jacket for her bf, searched and searched but to no avail.

Ate at Ljs next and Fahmy and Min joined us later. Bought takeaways Din also, and headed up to underground to meet Din.
Left underground at about 3pm i think, then studied at Esplanade Library(which was the original plan but it took a lot of time to get to the original plan which we finally did). Heh.
In the library, all studied Nursing Studies and Raudha/Stef& Syu joined us also. Then we left the library at almost 7pm and took 960 to Bugis. Stef had to leave after that.
We headed at Haji Lane for Mosi Cafe to sheesha there. My virgin sheesha puff that is, that night. Hehehehe.
Played games to lighten up the atmosphere and everyone was having a blast at that point of time. Had to leave at 9.30pm since Ibu reminded me in the morning not to go home late like the night before.
Went to Bugis station w Fad, Nab, Fahmy& Din and trained back home. Reached home by 11pm. Bathed/ Watched tv and slept early.


Life Right Now:
'm still the same Syaf btw. Only trying to change to be a lady meaning no more swearing and instead use polite but angry words. Get it? No? Nevermind.
I have to change since it's for the best.
Because I think 'm falling head over heels for him again.
(:(
Good or bad?
...........
'm starting to be smitten when I see him even just a glance..
That's how much I think I love you.
But it's interesting that I can't seem to tell you that I love you. It's interesting how you are always the one that 'll still choose now matter how many guys 've got to know. It's interesting when I say "i'll move on" but in the end, it always revert back to you. It's interesting that 'll always think of what to say to you to make sure I don't make a fool of myself infront of you though you have already seen my candid moments. It's interesting that your little gestures still makes me feel all tingly and happy jumpy little girl. It's interesting that I can't count how many times 've cry and giggle excitedly for you. It's interesting that I always think of you whenever I see my junior. It's interesting that you find me funny at times when I know my jokes are always lame. It's interesting that I still do not know the real reason to why I still fall for you eventhough I can never know when and whether you'll love me back. Buttttt, it will be more interesting if only you knew my blog and read this and straight away text me and tell me you love me too. It will be more interesting if you knew about this feeling that I have kept from you for you for a long time.
(:(


Exam is tomorrow& wednesday.
Hep B jab is on this coming week.
Napfa test is on this coming week also.
Posting results is on this coming week also.
Clearing of lockers is on this coming week also.
Idris's 17th/ Nadrah's 17th/ Sysse's 18th is on this coming week also.
Chinese Lesson is on 3rd week of June.
JP0904A Chalet is on 3rd week of June also.

So many events! Okay, since 'll be busy to update, 'll do an advance shoutout to them.
JUNE 1st; Happy 17th Idris! :)
JUNE 1st; Happy 17th Nadrah Rozman! :)
JUNE 3rd; Happy 18th Ainni Subhi! :)


xoxo.

Is chivalry really dead? I still am waiting for a romantic knight in a shining armor.
I know there's no perfect man in this wholeeeee wide world, so it'll take a couple more years for me to start dating again and search for the one that's perfect for me.
Again, why rush?

Was browsing through youtube and this is cute.


"I have a secret. I was watching you first."

;).

*Had a mini celebration for the birthday girl during lunch today. 10 Chicken Rice from Cafe 2 takeaways& headed up to the table at level 3. Sang a birthday song, cutted the cake, took pictures, ate our lunches and cake and went back to lesson. Gave the birthday girl a hug.

**Happy 17th Dear Majidah!(:

pieceofmymind,

From the first day I met you face to face& one on one, I confessed to you that you were the first guy that I could be comfortable w and that I was not going to be shy or irritated like I was w other guys. I give up, you win. I was almost on the tip of the mountain, wanting to cheer and celebrate because I had stopped liking you already.

But you pulled me down. You came back again. Mentally& Physically. Tell me, what do I do now? Those feelings are coming back. It's making its debut again. Deep down in my heart, I can hear a voice screaming whether do I hope or not hope& bits of pieces that was torn in my heart is slowing joining back. Is this a good thing or bad? I'll never know. I don't want to be humiliated again& again. It's v frustrating that you have to make a disappearing act whenever we are at the bottom of the mountain enjoying the view together. It's either I have to look for you, hope for a miracle that you would show up or that I have to stop liking you. Your smell is still lurking around me. I smile to myself when I walked into a shop and found the perfume that you showed me that you were wearing.

Stop making this difficult for me. I WAS STARTING TO STOP LIKING YOU, DID YOU EVEN KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR ME TO DO THAT? No you don't, because you only wanted the good stuffs. I know I can't compete w those girls that are filled in your contact lists because they're prolly older and better in many ways than me. I'm just 16 and what do I know, right? I'm still little, immature& don't even know how to navigate myself around town(still!). It hurts you know, it really really hurts. I'm such a mess. Omg. I think I may be starting to give in to you. I might be starting to like you again. Omg. MESS MESS MESS!

"Hand, Arm, Anything, I'm All Yours."

xoxo.



*Chatting w Iqah was nice, I poured out my feelings to her. &girl, you know it will work out if you try okay(:

- HAPPY 16th TYRA! LOVE YOU TO THE MAX BITCH. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. ;)

sad again!?!?!?? -.-

You are gone.
You're not even here.
It's that time again, ain't it?
'm about to say something v cliche; Say it isn't so.

You never informed me about it at all.
I know, who am I to you till you have to inform me all those things?
But at least, I don't have to hope for _______ if you had told me.
Bye.



p/s, Happy 16th Azreen& Happy 17th Shahiran!

16 is sweet, no?

This entry was supposed to be about yesterday though.


5th Nov,
Heh. My birthday. I pretty much said everything in my birthday entry post sooooo... hmmm.... this post is about what I did then yest. Well, reached school at 7.45am, and Ami goes "Happy Birthday!" and Faez goes "Ehhh, birthday girl dah smpi ahh." Haha, thankyou(: Then, Sulaiman goes "Happy birthday" with a smile. And many more laaaa. Haha, THANK YOU BOYS(: Malay paper was managable(: Alhamdullilah. After the paper ended, went to JP with my gossip partner, classmate for 4 years& bitch, Nabilah. But before that, Ami passed my random present from Tyra and Him. Hahaa, thanks. Hahaaha, pergi JP dgn Nabilah stakat due orang best tau! XD. Ate at KFC, and then talk about our embarrassing moments while still at KFC. Heh. Kelakar gilerrrrr dehhh. XD, you know i know ;)

Anws, after eating, walked all around JP to survey for dresses, and one caught my attention. Eh no, a few caught my attention, but the one i tried on was gorgeous. Heh. Planned so much that we got all excited and texted the girls on whether they want to hunt for dresses tmw. Haha, so they all agreed!(:

Anws, overall, it was fun, and i got myself a earring and 2 tees as a birthday gift for myself. XD. Thanks to Tyra& Ami for the random present. Syg krg manyakmanyak XD.

In the evening, met up with Rauf to give back his notes. Lepak-ed with him for a while till Ibu called to fetch me. So hmmm, fetched Ibu Yut& Cik Rose and went to Jurong Point and we all settled for Pizza Hut for dining. I thought Kakak was the only one to be there, but turns out she was with Kak Ida and Farahin also. Shocked dehhh. Hoho. After Ibu booked the place for 8 people, went walking around Jurong Point to waste time. Ajaked Ibu to the dress shop which I like, and Ibu approved! Heh. Anws, soon later went back to Pizza Hut and got 8 seats. Ate a lot there, but my appetite macam tak best gitu. Soo ate only one pizza, one pasta; Pepper Ribs which is highly recommended(!) and one sweet and spicy chicken. Ayah joined soon after, and yeah, took pictures, joked and everything. After eating, received 2 moolahs prezzies respectively from Ibu Yut and Cik Rose, and a prezzie that was shared from Kakak& Farahin. Thank You!(:

My family may not be perfect, and may be crumbling anytime soon, but I love them no matter what. They are simple, but still the best ever. Thank you. This love is irreplaceable. {insert infinity ♥.}

























Anws, after all the eating and everything, separated from them, xoxo for them, then I followed Ibu's Car and Kakak followed Ayah's Car. Sent Ibu Yut home first, then went home. At night, Haziq texted and wished me happy birthday. Haha, brape banyak kali laaaa nak wish?(: Thanks dude. Then texted Rauf and he thinks my birthday was on 6 november. -.-" Insisting summore that my birthday was 6 nov. Finally when I convinced him that my birthday was 5 nov, he said sorry then wished me. Haha, thanks maynnn. Then he wanted to get me a present/gift. -.-"
To Rauf: Seriously, tak payah la. Jgn susahkan diri jer. Dont waste your money. For reallll.

Like he will read gitu ehh. Hahaha, but really no need.

Anws, Thanks Acap for the wish. Belated punn boleh laa. Haha. YES PEOPLE, Belated is fine. At least you guys remembered or etc, I appreciate it a lot(:

P.S, Plan to find a grad dress cancelled. ):

HAPPEH 16th FARAH! AKU DAH 16, KAU PULAK EHHH!(:

xoxo.

^ ^

Firstly, Hello readers!!!!!!!!!! :D.

Secondly, I'm left with 1 paper.

Thirdly, I've FINALLY TURNED 15 16! Heh. Happy banget dehh. I know being 16 aint a biggy, but finally, it's my day. MY DAY, MY TURN(: Heh.


Fourth, Thank you to all who wished me through Msn, Email, Friendster, By Text, By Call, In Person, In Blog, In My Tagboard and etc. Thank you for the presents. Sorry if I didn't reply to any of the text msgs. Too much dehhh. Heh. But you all should know that I appreciate it very very much! SYAFIQA ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ YOU ALL. Wait, make it an infinity ♥. I will give you all a very very big hug and kiss if I could. Heh(((:

Fifth, Where are you? YES you! I'm waiting. Yes Nabilah, I know you know who that person is ;). Shhhhh~ Heh.

Sixth, I can't wait for everything to end. Everything = Pressure and Stress from O level. Yes. Who wants to tear and burn your Entry Proofs!?!?!???? Text me okay, and we'll make a date!(:


Seventh, Graduation Prom.
Date: 14th November.
Theme: Masquerade.

ARE YOU READY? ;)

Eighth, Barack Obama Wins By A Landslide(:
Expected, no?

Ninth, I love this song so much!!! And I likey you(:

Ten, I HAVE A ZIT ON MY NOSE, prolly a birthday gift from god. -.-"

xoxo.

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY kakak BEDAH AND LEHA.

Hahahahah, but sincerely from my heart, hope you guys have fun on your special day alright(:

&
HAPPY 51th Ibu Yut.


xoxo.

(:

Time check: 12.40am.
Date: 28th September 2008.

Happy 20th Abdul Ra-'uf!

Hahaha, nice name dudeee.
Thanks for being succhhha good friend(:
♥.
I hope that you will like your preseennnttt ;)


XOXO, Syaf.

*.*

Buka with The Gerekz(adapted from Yasser.) yesterday was awesome. Everyone had their fair share of laughter. The Gerekz = Yass, Nab, Ami, Tyra, Wanie, Iqah and Myself.

I'm not going into details of yesterday's outing cause' I'm rushing to do my Art Coursework which is due this Monday.

Luckily, Mr Goh let those who came just now for Art, and haven't finished, to bring the Coursework home and finish it. Pheewwyyy. Ayah sent Lelon home and thn, me. Anws, I will be buka-ing or dinner-ing, in my case, at Ibu Yut's house l8! Wooo~

Alrighty, yesterday buka pictures(not much though. But some can be found at Yass's blog.),




TTYL. I have to do my painting[:

HAPPEH 17th BIRTHDAY HAZIQ! ;]

HAPPEH belated 17th MONTHSARY IQAH!( I didn't get a chance to update about it. Heh.)

XOXO, Syaf.

You and I(;

A special dedication to my Father.

"You try so hard to give us the best things and make us happy eventhough Mother tends to disapprove. But there's more to it, than just material. And you have given us enough. Happeh 42th Birthday Ayah. May Allah bless you always."

On a random note, I miss Cous. Safuan![:

XOXO, Syaf.

mundane.

Hello Readers.

I've been feeling v.v.v.v.v.v.v.tired like hell, especially during Maths and English. I'll tend to doze off, and only Iqah saw how I sleep, well, at least trying to sleep. I've totally like lost interest in Maths like for real, maybe because the teacher is getting on my nerves lately. As for English, the teacher is really annoying and I feel like killing her, as in like stalking her, then kill her! Muahahaha!

Nuff' of my crazy ideas. Alright, MT O level Listening Compre is quite easy, not to be cocky or anything. But it wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. Heh. Before that, Eeerah, Wanie, Nabb and Myself went to JP to get Ami's present. Ate at KFC first, then, off to Courts, Harvey Norman, Gift A Name and Popular and surprisingly, we had enough time to get back to school at 4pm before the LC. Thanks to Eeerah's cash for the taxi fare and no thanks to Nabb for kanchionging. After which, took the LC and went home. Took the money on the dining table and went to the barber to have my hair cut, and i look like a cancerous person, because of the lack of hair XD. But still, it felt gooood.

Anws, tomorrow is such a relaxful day since the lessons that I take is limited. And there's ART tomorrow! :D.

I like you alot, and I'm scared to let you know.
I had to watch you from a distance, and hoping you'll knew.

Okay, Hasta Luego!

P/S, HAPPY SEE-EEK-TEEN BIRTHDAY AMIRUL HAFIZ![:

XOXO, Syaf.

!!!

Ay Bay Bay~

Happy 17th Birthday to the short biatch who is actually my older syster[: Semoga kau tak grow lagi, so I can be taller than you Biatch with a big tits.

Anws, yesterday was the last day of the remedials!!!!!! :DDD. After english remedial, Eeerah, Iqah, Nab and myself went to Makan Shiok. It's like a reunion of the W.A.N.T.S/TLOEIK, only without Wanie. And for the first time, NO BOYYYSSSS. (You know, I know :D.) Anws, Iqah had to leave early because of some unfortunate events, so it was left with the three of us. Funny things happened on the way back to school[: Went up to Art Room to do my art. Decided to enlarge the final piece at the very last week{: Receive a call from Mother about buying Sysse's present. Anws, we got lazy and played 21 and cheat with Eeerah's cards. Reached home at 2++pm. Rest until 5++pm. Then, told Sysse that I wanted to meet Mother to buy some Art things but the actual fact, was we went to IMM to search for her presents.

Met Mother at 6.30pm at Jurong East interchange. Walked all the way to IMM. Then, went to Fox, Bossini, FOS and etc. Mother bought for herself a skirt at some malay shop and a very in-trend shoes which I solely picked at Hush Puppies (and at last, it wasn't a wedge since I told her that wedges is TOTALLY out like, very very last season. So it's a big no-no.) After that, went to Bossini and saw this very pretty hoodie dress but it was short of colours. The only colours that the pattern possess was purple and black and on top of that, it's on a horizontal pattern which will totally make Sysse look more plum. Headed to FOS, but sadly, the designs are of last seasons. -.-" Anws, went back to FOX to buy two tops for Sysse which will look great as a set and Mother bought me two tops which is on a sale so she got a 50% discount[:

After that, went to Mini Toons, to get a birthday card and went to Giant to find my trackpants. Then, off to eat at LJS. Like finally, I get to eat fast food after so long not having them[:

Then, Dad picked us up, and I went to bed at 1am.

Today was a very tiring but exciting day. Overslept until 7.30am and quickly got into the bathroom and msg-ed Widya telling her that I just bath. Anws, reached the dance studio at 8.15am and learned the new steps with Haini and Wid. Thanks Haini for teaching me![: Sorry if I kept asking you alot of qns. :\ Anws, stretched alot during the warmups. OMFG. So painful. D: But i must endure it. Overall, the dance moves are hot hot heat[: I LOVE IT alot.

Went to Cheers after practice and went home and here I am!

Okaaay. Today there's no tuition! :D.

ONCE again, Happy birthday short big tits Sys.

Okay Byyyyeeeeee~