pieceofmymind,

From the first day I met you face to face& one on one, I confessed to you that you were the first guy that I could be comfortable w and that I was not going to be shy or irritated like I was w other guys. I give up, you win. I was almost on the tip of the mountain, wanting to cheer and celebrate because I had stopped liking you already.

But you pulled me down. You came back again. Mentally& Physically. Tell me, what do I do now? Those feelings are coming back. It's making its debut again. Deep down in my heart, I can hear a voice screaming whether do I hope or not hope& bits of pieces that was torn in my heart is slowing joining back. Is this a good thing or bad? I'll never know. I don't want to be humiliated again& again. It's v frustrating that you have to make a disappearing act whenever we are at the bottom of the mountain enjoying the view together. It's either I have to look for you, hope for a miracle that you would show up or that I have to stop liking you. Your smell is still lurking around me. I smile to myself when I walked into a shop and found the perfume that you showed me that you were wearing.

Stop making this difficult for me. I WAS STARTING TO STOP LIKING YOU, DID YOU EVEN KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR ME TO DO THAT? No you don't, because you only wanted the good stuffs. I know I can't compete w those girls that are filled in your contact lists because they're prolly older and better in many ways than me. I'm just 16 and what do I know, right? I'm still little, immature& don't even know how to navigate myself around town(still!). It hurts you know, it really really hurts. I'm such a mess. Omg. I think I may be starting to give in to you. I might be starting to like you again. Omg. MESS MESS MESS!

"Hand, Arm, Anything, I'm All Yours."

xoxo.



*Chatting w Iqah was nice, I poured out my feelings to her. &girl, you know it will work out if you try okay(:

- HAPPY 16th TYRA! LOVE YOU TO THE MAX BITCH. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. ;)