(my really black mamba hair :'(. in sunlight only can see a little colour. Booo!)

I want to move on but that smile&charm just stops me from doing so..
You're so nice, yet you're not my boyfriend.
Like I treat you like my only dude, but you're not my boyfriend.

My favorite bunch w the CA.
(in no order; Yasser, Zahidah, Sharifah, Stefannia, Raudha, Nabilah, Nadirah, Iqbal, Rabbani, Fad, Majidah, Dzul& Peter).
Not in picture is Afiqah.

Gerek people(:

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Yay, not schooling tomorrow! Heeeeee, going out later~
I'll see you when I see you,
xoxo.

1) I wubbbby lubbbby phase test just now though I forgot some stuffs. Heh. I passed too, i think la since the teacher told me so.
Zomg,,, v v v tired right now.
&Bio combined lecture tomorrow. zzzzz.

2) I also wubbbby lubbbby the guy in zee train! So charming looking, like a prince charming y'know. A religious school student some more! Hehehe..

3) I am so sexcited for the weekend, still confirming though -.-
A getaway would actually be nice, y'know.

4) 've lose weight, surprisingly, from 4xkg to 4xkg :D

5) If you see me being quiet in school, it just means that 'm tired, not sad or anyth.
So don't worry, 'm not emotional, JUST v tired.

It's been such a long time since I type this,
so here you go, xoxo.
I'll see you when I see you.

I miss you again and again.
It's over by an hour or two.
But it'll be back again and again.
A glance will do, but we don't get what we always want, do we?

I know, ugly seugly uglynye.
HAHAHA!
Fringe curly wurly -.- Eeeee.

There was an original post to this and I find it rather mean after typing it all out.
But anyways, phase test tomorrow! :D.
So exciting lehhhhhh.

'm sooooo looking forward to go to school everyday in the morning, specifically till Paya Lebar because......you just have to find out for yourself ;).
Alrighty, this post really is too short, but 've got to go. Am v tired, shagged and missing someone right now.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeee!(not high, just excited for school tomorrow).

Toujours prendre , Toujours vouloir.
Je manque vous.

deadbeat.

School's starting to get its toll on me.
Everyday I wake up at 4.30am just to shut my alarm off, then go back to sleep till 5am and wake up and drag myself into the shower.
I get out of my house at 6.10am and always meet up w N and Y at the first cabin of Lakeside Mrt and frequently had to stand all the way from Lakeside to Tanah Merah/Bedok/Simei.
If we had luck, we would get seats at Jurong East or Outram Park or City Hall. Like I said, IF we had luck.

Then we'll reach at Tanah Merah/Bedok and wait for either bus 31 or bus 2 and had to cram in the bus every morning unless we get seats.
If we are in the mood, we'll alight at Simei and walked from Simei to school.
Reached school by 7.30am/7.45am and go straight to the locker and run to our first class.

Anyways, skipped all the dilly dallys, what 'm trying to say here is I am v fatigue already. Just now, imagine, I slept in the afternoon at 5 till 8pm. A good one at that.

Oh yeah, 'll always finish school at 6pm on Mondays, Thursday and Fridays and the other two days on 5pm, but occasionally the teacher will extend it to 6pm.
Then 'll walked to Simei w the group or take bus 31 to either Tanah Merah Mrt or Tampines Interchange and take the train home. By that time, 'll reach home at 7.30pm(if by Tanah Merah/Simei) or 8.30pm(if by Tampines Interchange).

'll be so tired that I can't fulfill my meeting w my friends at night unless it isn't a school night.
'm sooooo sorry to those people who have planned a meeting w me because 'm too tired to go out on dates so the only thing I could do w you is just to lepak under my block.

Especially to I, who had been wanting to go on a date w me. The timing just clashed or either 'll have other plans or either one of us is just tired or you had to go back to camp/or in camp. Really really sorry.

By then, 'll sleep miracly early for me, at midnight.
& the whole routine just keeps repeating..

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Gosh, my phase test is coming. :S
My attachment is on July, 've chosen either Sgh or Nuh.
Fast isn't it? :S

&don't get me wrong, I love school(:
I just hate the journey ):

Till next time.

Je Manque Vous Tellement.

Wish you'd never left me love's a mystery
You can break a heart so easily
Days and nights reveal how much i feel for you
Time has come for me to see
How much your love has meant to me

And i'll always love you
And if you ever change your mind i'd still
I will love you.

Darn quiz.

1.Taken or single?
Single

2.Do you like it?
Yeah.

3.Would you still kiss your EX even when you're attached?
Nope.

4.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah.

5.Do you believe that cheating is bad?
No and yes.

6.Are you missing someone special right now?
Yes. But he's not like a special kind of someone, just a friend.

7.What his or her name?
Rauf.

8.How old is he or she?
21 :O!

9.Have you imagined kissing him or her?
Hahaha, no.

10.Are you a gay or lesbian?
Yes. -.- No.

11.Do you wish to be a gay or lesbian?
Yes.

12.Would you choose to sleep with a dog or a kitten?
Your kitten.

13.What's the answer to Q.7?
Go find out yourself!

14.If you are a lesbian say AAAAAAAAAH or if you're a gay say BAAAAAAAAAH.
Go and die.

Random names (don't need to do.)

Nabilah
Yasser
Ainni
Raudha
Wanie
Iqah
Dzul
Fad
Faez
Ami

15.What will you do if No.2 & No.9 gets together?
Gay squad.

16.What will you do if you see No.1 & No.3 goes out together?
Les squad.

17.What will you do if No.5 & No.6 fights?
Terperanjat berok.

18.If No.8 & No.10 hold hands , what's your first reaction?
They don't even know each other. -.-

19.If No.7 scolds No.4 , what do you think you'll do?
Haha, laugh because it's hilarious.

20.Do you love No.1?
Yes. But 'm not a lesbian bitch.

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'm tired now, so bye.

everybody knows...

I love school so zee much.
JP0904A is zee sex!!!!!
Forget all the drama mama teachers, we still rock better than them.

(:

You can see 'm attached to them already.
Didn't expect to initially by the first week, but then it happened naturally.
I love Life Skills! Best subject ever, and also a rocking '20 forever' teacher. (inside joke)

xo.

'm starting to like school even more.
Everything seems to fall in perfect condition.
I love going to school everyday though I really hate the distance from my home to the school itself.
I love going back from school everyday because I get to go home and rest.
'm still confused w biology but 'll get through because 'm still learning.
I love my classmates alot okay. Heh.


S, Dy& yours truly in auditorium during the break. (i know i look fat okay.)
Hopefully more pictures will be uploaded soon.
've got to go, school tomorrow& Saturday also ):
Bye!

I portray your weakness.

Orientation yest was awesomeeeee. Yes, didn't expect to make lots of friends in just a day. Well, 'm in the only Paramedic class(special please, lol) w my old mates, Nabilah& Yasser also.

JP0904A is the bomb okay, we should have won the amazing race! Yes, that's my class name. Quite a mouthful ain't it?
There are only 6 Chinese, 1 Eurasian, 3 Indians& the rest of the class are Malay students. No, none of them are the minahs/mats sort thankgod.
So far, we've bought books& got our timetable. 8am to 6pm everyday, probably we have to come on one of the Saturdays.
Books that we have to buy are only 3 but the size of one of the books is twice of a normal Poa book.
Almost all our lessons are in the 6th storey and Sport& Wellness happens twice a week.
For the first day, we had Amazing Race, Icebreaker; Blow Wind Blow, Cheers& etc.
All the students in my class are thankfully nice and easy to interact w.

During this upcoming 7 weeks, it'll be jam packed w lots of lessons because exams are coming up right after that in early June.
So we'll have to start pre-reading the notes that was given earlier and be more disciplined.
Oh yes, 've joined Malay Dance Club, as usual. Heh. But orientation for it starts in 5th May.
Subjects going to be learnt; Biology Science 1, Nursing Studies, Life Skills& Sport& Wellness.

'm off now. Till next time(which I don't know when because 'll be busy w school).

Officially one more day till school.
Nervous? Yes.
Excited? Yes.
Butterflies in the stomach? V much...yes.
To You, Je manque vous tout d'un coup.

I'll leave now, wish me luck w school on Monday. Good Morning!

I can't find the girl who always wants to sneak out late just to meet a couple of people for merely an hour or two.
I can't find the girl who always rebel against her own mother just to meet the guy of her dreams.
I can't find the girl who always wanted a gin instead of a tonic.
I can't find the girl who always just want to be different than the rest.

I am seeing a monotonous girl who always wakes up to an empty house with chores to do.
I am seeing a monotonous girl who finds life just another stupid reason to actually not die.
I am seeing a monotonous girl who is losing her figure.
I am seeing a monotonous girl who is going to sleep early on a Friday night.
I am seeing a monotonous girl who is actually losing her charm and being cliche.

I can't be bothered anymore...

N is Nurul....not Nabilah -.-

1. Changing of url soon by this weekend. Feeling like changing.

2. Finally I can upload Syf's pictures that were from my phone& Abg Yus's Wedding.

3. Syf's pictures from my phone. This boy on the right is always entering the frame -.-
At last pose for the camera, that being still he's moving. -.-

Sorry Iqah! :D.
Okay, my nose is like as big as Father Christmas's ass.








(below aren't from my phone but they are pretty. Heh.)



4. In need of a new bag seriously. Might drag Ayah to buy a new school bag/stationery& what not for school.

5. Syam called me just now randomly and he missed me. Haha. AWWWWWWWWWWW! I told him 'll put that. Prolly after he read this, he'll smile to himself :DDD.

6. I still am v proud of the dancers even though the result is so yesterday. I feel like going down to the school and hug every single soul that dance on that stage on Tuesday(:

7. I am gaining weight and it goes to my cheeks, thighs and boobs. I think my boobs are getting bigger somehow. :S

8. Goodnight readers!

Speaking of you.

1. I am so proud of them. No words could describe how elated I am right now. My day just got better after receiving this text from Haini.


How awesome can that get?
From a Bronze to a Silver and another Silver, now Gold.
Congratulations to the dancers,
w the confidence/smiles/effort that you've shown during your performance yesterday, all of you jolly-well deserved a Gold.
xo.

2. I didn't know that chatting in the middle of the night or morning just now at 2am till 3.30am then continued by texting till 5am w Fad could be that fun.

3. I don't think I am prepared to start a new r/ship or f/ship w any strangers. It's not that 'm being cocky or absurd but I just have high expectations.
I know I have to do so at some point of time but can it not be now?
It's hard work to build such a fragile r/ship or f/ship and I don't want to rush into things or ruin anything.
That's why 'm being tough on you, not coming across as being cocky.

4. Planning to get a new school bag, but what kind matches w my uniform? :\.

5. I will either private this blog or change the url soon.

6. Once again, congratulations dancers. 'm so proud of you :DDDD.

I could single you out from the crowd by one glance.

Will upload pictures of yesterday(since it's 12am already) from my phone as soon as possible. In the meantime, here are some overdue pictures, back in late March.

Race to Witch Mountain w Farahin, Alisya& Syuhada.

Mall Cop w Iqah, Wanie, Tyra, Yass, Ami, Faez& Kumar.


Eating across the border then late night karaoke at Cash Studio w the big cousins.
Watched Malay Dance; full dress w Wanie.




The performers did great yesterday at UCC, everyone enjoyed themselves. Whatever the results is for yesterday's performance, they should be proud of themselves and I'm particularly proud of the boys for having gain more confidence.

Iqah, Nabb, Yass, Fitri, Fahmy managed to come down too and support, unfortunately Wanie couldn't due to her orientation ): But never mind.

We are more than happy to come down and support you all ahhhhhhhhhh just now. Gold eh eh eh eh? :D.

It seems only like yesterday's yesterday(lol) when I stepped into the theatre and see the stage and could imagine myself performing 2 years ago..
:'(.
In short, I miss dancing and the grueling practices.
What great memories.

&in 4/5 more days, school starts. I don't think I will be able to cope w the new environment even though some of my close friends are in the same course as me.
It's the foreign environment and the process of getting to know each other all over again.
The orientations/camps/cheers... :(.

Suddenly I'm missing someone that I didn't expect I would miss :/.

Bye.

I Can Fight My Own Battles.

2. Just looking at your hands can turn me on.

3. When you go away, even for a day, I sleep in your favorite old T-shirt because it smells like you.

6. I still think about my ex-boyfriends and compare them to you. Mostly you win. Sometimes not.

7. I have Googled your exes.

8. When I'm falling in love with you, I completely lose my appetite.

9. My body really isn't naturally this hairless and smooth all over. But I will never allow you to see any indication whatsoever of all the shaving, tweezing, waxing, exfoliating, and moisturizing that gets it this way.

10. I only appear to have it all together. My true organization (or lack thereof) is revealed in my closet, my makeup bag, my desk files.

12. When I say, "I'm ready," I'll need exactly 7 more minutes to get ready. Don't try to cheat the system by showing up 7 minutes later; I will still need an extra 7 minutes.

13. When I say, "I'll meet you in 15 minutes," I mean I will leave in 15 minutes, and thus won't actually arrive for at least 30 (but probably more like 40).

14. You've made me cry more times than you'll ever know.

15. I obsess about when you're going to call me again. The period of time between our first date and your "Thanks for a great night; when can I see you again?" always seems stretched into slow motion. So don't worry about looking too eager. Call. Even if you only wait until noon the day after, it will feel like a lifetime to me. And don't send me an e-mail unless you want me to put you in the figurative trash can along with your message.

16. I want you to talk a little dirty.

17. At the beginning of our relationship, I save all of your voice mails and listen to them (and make my friends listen, too), repeatedly.

20. I'm constantly testing you. I observe, analyze, and judge every action, word, gesture, e-mail, and facial expression. When I ask you if you want to have a threesome, I don't mean it. If you want me to speak to you again, let alone sleep with you after this conversation, the answer should always be, "Why would I want to sleep with another woman when I have you?"

21. I check out your butt every time you leave the room.

22. I need constant indications that you want me around. That's why it's better, for example, to say, "I want you to come away with me for the weekend. Could you come with me?" than to ask, "What are you up to this weekend?"

23. I love it when you get a little jealous. So if you ever see me flirting in front of you with the waiter, the bus driver, or another guy at a party, know I'm actually flirting with you—through him.

25. I start fights with you because I'm feeling ignored. I'm trying to force emotion out of you. Don't retreat into your cave; just give me what I want: some attention. And never tell me to "calm down," unless you want to guarantee that I absolutely won't.

27. I may find your best friend repulsive, but I've fantasized about sleeping with him. Not because I want him, but because I want a piece of a guy who is so close to you.

28. If I'm going to break up with you, all of my friends know way before you do. I've been talking about it for 2 weeks.

29. When we do break up, I put all photographs of you and mementos of our relationship in a shoe box and store it in my closet. Just in case I get nostalgic. Just in case you come back.

-30 Secrets Every Woman Keeps From Her Man
By MensHealth.com

Feeling ever soooo nauseous right now.
Have to resist the pain.
I will call you out if I don't see any Guardian Angel around me.
I still call you my special friend.

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Will be going to Ucc w the malay dancers for their Syf Performance; Break a leg is always better saying than good luck.

School starts in a week? zomg.

I was scared to death.
I was worried because I've never seen you like that before.
The way you reacted makes you look like you are near death.
We didn't think that this was even possible or that it would ever happened but it did.
I was v worried, v v worried.
I couldn't imagine life without you even if I have to be hurt at any point of time.
This time the strings isn't broken.

And there were 16.
So who's next?
:(.

Went back to YC to see the Malay Dance Practice yesterday w H. Lucky for us, we get to go in and see them in an almost full dress practice. There were some improvements to be made, but they did quite well rather than the last 2 years ago. There were not much juniors especially for the boys but 'm pretty proud of the improvements the boys did.







After which, met up w Kakak to go to Jp to get some things and eat. Then went home and did spring cleaning at our room and boy were we tired. Hit the sack right away and now here I am on Mum's Laptop again.

HAPPY BELATED 17th HAINI!

xoxo.