you know you love me, i know you care :)

Suddenly I feel like being in th cold sand w Fahmy at 2am, eating MacDs like we did few weeks back. It was so calm and quiet. I love it that way. I love that he's there and I could enjoy his company w/o even saying anything except hearing th ocean closing in on th shore and also laying down on th mat, looking at th stars. It was one of th nicest dates I've been to. Never did it before, but glad that I did. Only w you :}

Am meeting w th boys tonight! Hehehe and of course w Farah :} Just like th good ol' days people. Miss hanging out w them and glad I did last night. I could get 6 packs just by laughing at their silly antics. Ohhhh my, cant wait!!!! :)

My medical posting at Ward 53C is over yesterday. I am glad that I've opened up myself and learn to talk to others before they even talk to me. I am glad that I've gotten quite a high score for this posting which means that I've improved and I loved how my last day ends w a bang :)
They were th most supportive bunch of nurses I've met. Maybe if I graduate, I want to work at a female-only ward pleaseeeee? Hahahahah. Room 28 ftw please :} hehehe.

Next week is Rehabbbbb week. At? Hougang :O. There's a shocker. God how do I even get there? -.-

xoxoxox.

Miley's Party In The USA is growing on me.
I like it, the beats are awesome!
Hehehe.

Anw Ayah's DnD was awesome cause' the entertainment and games were fantastic.
After that, headed to Jb for a while.
And went back to school th next day for Sim Training and boy was it kinda fun. Sleepy but fun. Hah. Finally get to see Fils ehhhhhh ;).
Went back w Kakak, Filzah, Ayme& Iffah. Those really crazy bunch of girls :)

Will be heading to Kampung later for kenduri soooo can't wait for good food. Haahahaha!
Fahmy can you scold me now? I'm getting fatter dok! -.-

&next week is medical ward's last week! :(

xxoxoo.

miss me?

A quick update before I shower and get ready for afternoon shift :)

Life's been awesome. Well I'm not loving it but I do like it.
It's been nice, and everything's been going well so far for my 2010.

Attachment is kinda awesome though my competency level isn't signed yet because our dear lecturer decided to do so at th 3rd week which is this week.
&i'm on afternoon shift for 2 days which means there isn't much to do and I won't get signed for anything. So I have to work harder for th remaining morning shifts that I have which means I have to rush which I do not like to do. Pfft.

Recently went to surprise 3 January darlings separately who is Nabilah(from her afternoon shift), Farahin(from her void deck)& Yasser(from Reis Cafe). &everything turned out awesome! :) Glad to hear that they love it cause' if they love it, I do love it :) Hehehehehe~ And thankyou to those people who make it happen! Love you all.

Following Ayah along w Kakak to Ayah's DnD on Thursday which means weeeee abang abang police...okay OR pakcikpakcik police so booooooo. Though I have to rush from morning shift back to home to get ready. Still....excited much!?
&I'm going back to school on Friday for Sims Training which is awesomeeeee cause I get to see people I miss! Wooo~ Can't waittttt yo.

Okay till here xoxo.
Pictures will be uploaded soon :)
Fahmy, i sayang you. Suke suke suke dpt tgk ni!? Heh :D.

I'll make this short.
He's gone since 31st December 2009.
I miss my late granddad :'(.
What a way to end 2009 and I'm glad his pain is over.
HE loves granddad more.
<3.

Attachment have started since Monday.
Me likeyyyyy my medical ward.
It's awesome but tiringggg :'(.
&th best and worst part is, Fahmy's in the same hospital as me but we're always in th different shifts.
Nvm baby! Handphone tetap ade. :P

Oh yes Happy Legal Birthday Today to my wonderful Gf, Nabililly :).
lovelovelove you and our kental moments since 2005 and our aimless outing(which we have to have one soon). Hahahaha! Love you more than I love Fahmy and more than Din does to you!!!! :P

(oh those kental moments how i miss my naive days.)

xoxoxox.

sorry i can't speak french :)

Went out w Rafi, Qeem, Nab, Tyra& Wanie over to town on Monday.
W a little gossips + frappe + window shopping + shopping + th boys joining us for th conversations makes th little outing a lil bit more fun than always :)
Love you all.


Was out the whole Tuesday;
over to Fahmy's place in the morning and thn to Jurong Point for a v late lunch, then Farah's grannyz place.
Thn to boon lay for karaoke session w Min, Yass, Aji, Syam, Farah& Fahmy(came!!! :P).
They ate their supper(-.-) and played crocodile(!!!) at th nearby playground. Hahahaha,
yes.
Love you all too.


+ Countdownnnnn w baby&friends :).
Byeeeeeeee~

Loveeeeee Sysse's classic face :}
Sysse has been really nice and sweet nowadays and even accompany me to get my stuffs.
Loveeeee her!!!!!
Hehehehehe.
Boredz and on a Saturday -.-
The boyfriend is being irritating right now.
Love u still gile.
(see i talked about you ok.)
enough mushy talk.

meet up w some of the e-Crew at t.j and we lepaked like minahs and mats w guitars singing out loud and playing silly games under Mudd's block on Christmas afternoon.
went out w boyfriend and his friends on Christmas evening.
hahaha hiiii bahan ketawa! :P.
his friends were all funny but nice and sarcastic(at the same time) bunch of people.
&i'm the youngest among them some more! :O.
hehehe okay i am typing bull crap right now.
I love Qwerty keyboards because i can drag my words till the receiver gets annoyed. Heh.
bye.

Say hello to my new baby :)
okay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
merry christmas readers!

two days of madness fun

My whole Monday was spent w Fahmylove at Yishun Polyclinic then at his place, over to Causeway Point's Seoul Garden and finally, watched Avatar w love. Lovelyyyyyy day indeedz :)


My whole Tuesday was spent w Fahmylove, Kakak, Iffah, Filzah, Nazirah, Rishi, Wira, Azhar& Brenda, picnic-ing at Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve then over to Woodlands to lepak and Civic for dinner/supper w Wira's treat. Thankyou all of you for a lovely day especially love :).

&finally i gottttt some rest. Hahahahaha, imagine two days straight you wake up at 7 plus or 8 in the morning and will only reach home by 11pm. Still(!), i do enjoy it :)
&&i love my pink crocs! Hehehehe.

Byeeeeeeeeee!

In just one night,
I laughed.
I shouted.
I played.
I ate a lot.
I cried.
I pled that you will not talk about the past and questioned my decision anymore.
I forgave.
I convinced you that I don't regret my decision.

That's how my 'awesome' Saturday goes.
Awesome's a pretty redundant word actually.
First it was awesome then I felt like going home or wished Farah was there.
But the past is the past then.
Forgive but (im sorry i can't) forget it.
Don't worry I'll be fine.

"I love you." - Baby wanted me to put this only in this post. -.- Jangan feeling okay!

ok bai~

i am giving up hope love feelings boys men relationships trust ego hypocrisy dates luck you.
better take care of yourself during your trainings or wherever you are alright Fahmy?
i won't be the one to remind you about this anymore.
"Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just simply means that you value your relationship more than your ego."
Loved you.

Anywhoos, looking forward to saturday(hopefully its gg to be awesome)
've got peachy pink for the nails btw.
& I HAVE WATCHED TWILIGHT the first movie just now.
hahahaha yes i watched new moon w/o knowing the basics about twilight, but now i know(!!!!)
Yes if you love me and want me to be a happy girlyyy, buy me their books and i'll be more addicted.
God i'm addicted to their intense love :) now i get the fuss about this movie.
hehehehehe.

Alrighty, mini N97 or E73? I know my phone's barely survived one year but wtf. Which which which? :\

okbaiiiiiii.

I will be back w awesomeeeeee nails!!!!!!! (pink or chocolate brown? hmmmmm.)
now i am going to take a shower, time check: 7.40pm.
:S.

....

am away(or gone) for a long long long time.
they've taken me far, far enough to make sure you don't find me anymore.
ever.

i need to build a wall,
a wall where only chosen ones are allowed to be in.
if you think you're qualified enough to be in it, stop asking and leave me at my comfort zone(read: my personal space).

bai bai world.
bai bai love.
bai bai everyone.

tu amor

Yay yay yay, will be meeting darling Nabby Gf and Tyra Gf later! Heheheehe~
I have nothing else to update about.
Okay maybe i need to meet the expressO crew soon and the BabyGs also.
Where's the outinggggg? :(.
Oh and my holidays have started and I'm boredzxzz.
I should make full use of it and clean the house or my room(!?!!) or my wardrobe(!!!!) but that'll be like going for war w the furnitures but we'll seeeeeee. (maybe not because i'm lazy hahahaha)
Ok baibai! :)

i'm a masterpiece, you know that's true.

You don't have to keep reminding me why you love me.

You don't have to keep telling me the reasons to why you love me.

I appreciate it all, I get you.

<3.

I think i'm (still) in love w you.

-I want to dye my hair.
-I met the darlinggzzzz NsBoy yesterday night, heheheh.
-BodyWorkz(sp?) just now was mega creepy but interesting but damn damn disgusting especially if the person you are walking w around the exhibition is a boy who compare the exhibit's penis. Bacin punya budak.
-Gf Nabby is coming back tonight!!!!
-I just rejected an offer to go karaoke session w Farah and theeee boys because basically im still half asleep even after taking a long long nappy.
-I am hungry and haven't eat since morning. (time check right now: 7.05pm) so i'm going to eat right now.

okbaibai! :)
thanks for reading this unnecessary post.

love story.

Currently listening to rnb love songs,
aww the rhythm makes me want to dance, makes me want to groove.
Especially love love love frankie j, mario, neyo& j holiday's.

It's Friday today, why am I not thinking of you?
Are you out of my mind, body, soul& heart forever?
Are you finally out? Can I be free and happy now?
we'll see.

Finally I'll be going out today(!!!!!!)
Moments ago, Kakak asked if I want to follow her to Rebel tomorrow, then before I can answer, she said nvm. Next year can.
-.-
Cheat my feelings only, was thinking of going out on Saturday but am am am broke.
Like finally, I'm broke. Hahaha.

&have you heard the new commotion?
that Umar and I have something going on.......but nah there's nothing eh Umar? :)
Feeling hotstuffffff only that boy.
Which reminds me, I'll be seeing him at the game today!
Or maybeeeee not.
He still can't decide -.-

okaybyeeeeeeee,
and I miss gf Nabby :(

never did i think of that.

This is for you.

I realised I am the selfish one now,

But because of what you did for me in the past,

makes me unsure of my own feelings, that you might do it again TO me instead in the future.

"I heard that bouncing back was easy,

But I can't seem to get you off my mind.

I know that you can't hear me,

But I think about you every day.

And I have the shortest memory,

But I can't forget the pain,

That I felt when you went away.

I can't have it both ways,

I'm sorry that I said goodbye.

People say I did the right thing,

But they don't have to cry.

I can love you for all the thing that you are,

And then hate you for all the things that you're not.

I want you to go, I want you to stay.

But I can't have it both ways, I can't have it both ways.

You used to put the S in selfish,

Most time the only one you cared for, was yourself.

But then you go and put the A in affection,

And you could make me forget about everything else.

Hating, hate is overrated baby.

So are all the mistakes we make in life,

Just to keep our pride.

I can't have it both ways,

I really want it that way, but I love it this way.

I know I can't have it both ways."

Time Check: 3.45am.

I am not disciplined enough....exams is in 2 days.
I am always out.
Sheesha session w the boys and darling Farah just now :)
Watched a late night show; TWILIGHT NEW MOON W FARAH after the sheesha and lepak session! Hehehehe loveeee the intensityyyy~
Got back at 3am thanks to the dearest Ayah.

Later(in 7 hours time), will be out w dearies for a birthday surprise celebration! Hehehe I am so so so dead for not studying :(

Goodnight readers<3.
<3 the Nsboy banyakbanyakbanyak sampai tak kesah kalau melebih ke tak.
<3 just now's company.
<3 anyone who's reading this.

xo.