I am Syaf (in french).

Just so you know, I'm v disappointed.
To think that you could lie to me is just.... really ridiculous.
I don't knw if you would be reading my blog or not, but yes, 'm talking about you.

No, 'm not gg to curse/insult/spout vulgarities at you, because you taught me not to& remind me that 'm still a girl& girl are always the ones with gd manners.
Yes, 'm gg to remember all the lil' things you remind me which will make a gd impression out of myself(:
I have promise to myself that 'll try to forget you& move on.
On top of that, 'll try to ignore your msgs or at least reply you in a short manner.
&even though I had made that promise to myself, to remind me of you not being such a meanie/bacin most of the time, 'll still keep your v nice text msg on 14th Nov/12.55am.

'm not your ragged doll anymore.
Yes, 'll miss those times when we did hang out& have fun.
But it's time to move on.
This time, my instincts was the one who told me to move on.
've confessed to you btw& i wasn't actually talking crap or merepek that night, cause' I was still wide awake when we were texting each other at almost 3am.

But it doesn't matter now, does it?
&its too late already.
cause' I don't want to make the same mistake which 've done for almost about 6 times.
& no people, we aren't talking about my virginity here!
pfft.

This is v cliche: "There are many fishes in the ocean."
Therefore, I refused t actually believe it. cause' cliche things happens to only one-third out of a trillion people in this world.
& being me, I refused to believe that 'm in that particular one-third population.
Still,, thanks Yasser for the effort in trying to cheer me up.

To tell you the truth, nothing actually do cheer me up right nw.
So 'm predicting that I would be listening to all the sad heartbreak songs in my psp& will be crying myself to sleep tonight.

This phrase:"Never ever cry for any boy."
That's a reaaaally tough phrase to live up to.
& well, it never did worked for me...probably never will be :\

One thing I might have to admit about myself.
If I know this particular one guy, 'll get hooked, likeeee really hooked eventho we are just friends.
cause' I know that we'll be gd friends.
& then, I wouldn't want to get to know any other guys, precisely because most of the guys that want to get to know me are jerks. Yes, mean jerks.

In the end, it ended up only,
you that i'll be texting.
you that i'll be teasing.
you that i'll be laughing at.
you that i'll be calling.
you that i'll be looking forward to meet with.
you that i'll be crying over lil' things.
you that i'll be finding fault with.
you that i'll be slapping.
you that i'll be poking.

only you.

The last reminders for you,
-Please promise me that you'll take care of yourself.
-Not to mention, try not to strain your leg again.
-Don't sleep late always, its not good for your health.
-I hope you'll have a good life ahead& find the right girl of your dreams.

What is the girl of your dreams criteria again?
Oh yeah, its..
1)Don't be wild (eg, clubbing/drinking/smoking)
2)Being able to pray or know how to pray (eg, religious)
3)Don't be too open (in terms of clothing)

If 'm not mistaken, this is the only criteria right?
Anws, I hope you'll find the girl that fits the bill.

that's all I have to say to you.
it's all too late now... i guess.
& this is pretty much almost goodbye.

my one& only xoxo for you.