trying to

should i even care that you took the initiative to text me?
why am i so down?
even D's text doesn't seem to make me smile.
even calling Ibu and wishing her over the phone happy birthday& telling her i love her& her reaction was giggling, doesn't seem to make me smile.
even Yasser trying to cheer me up through texting doesn't make me smile.
matter of fact, the important thing is all of it doesn't make me feel happy one bit.

school will make me happy i guess.
or not.

or maybe it's just that i miss you so so much :'(
i really do.