I am Syaf (in french).

I have been avoiding people. Not W.A.N.T. But other people. When i contact them, they said that if i want to ignore them, do it. They make it sound as if i'm the bad person. Ohyeah. Am i? WTF. You choosed to not contact me and i get the credit of being the bad person. One more thing. Don't make me hate you. You give me this BIG decisions that i have to decide. If i make one wrong decision, you'll blame me. What do you think i am? Seriously. Oh. I'm so glad that we're having this holiday. Even for a month. At least, i could get my mind out of you. Both of you. YES, i am avoiding YOU.

I miss my friends. I wonder when could we go out together. At least, have fun for the whole day. Ohman. I miss you guys.

I had fun chatting with Haziq in the wee morning. Seems like many people aren't asleep yet. Ohman. This just remind me of the old times we used to text eachother. Yeah. And we're this close to being together. But we made that promise. Yeah. 7 years. 3 years had passed. 4 more to go. I might have broke the promise. But i re-made the promise. Swearing and vowing that this time, i will not break it. Do you even still remember it? Or are you trying to forget about it? :/ But it seems that you gathered more friends during Secondary school. Can i still approached you about this matter after 7 years? :/ Many of my friends think that i would never last 7 years of being single. Yeah, they ARE right. I wouldn't. But i'm trying to prove that i can. Yes, i can.

Homeworks are too much for me to finish. And my artwork is still hasn't been pass up. Ohwell, might as well get an F right?

Dad is so irritating. Like really. Dad's trying to 'fit in' by being a teenager in his own world. Dad is really getting in my nerves. I always and EVERYTIME avoided him if he wants to talk or sit next to me. I'm not trying to be rude but mind your manners. He always asks me and especially, Sis, arounds. And when we try to rest or take a break, he'll try to talk us through to clean the house.

WELL, excuse me Dad, if Dad does fit you. You didn't contribute into any of the house work. In the weekends, you always go out the whole day. Because you want to avoid Mum's nagging right? So you dont have to do any housecleaning jobs. Then, you would get back home and asked for food. Then you watch tv. And go out again. Using the reason to fix the car and everything! Then you reached home and eat then, sleep. Is that a Dad's duty? Really, is it? If it werent for Mum who always work, we would be starve to death. Did you ever pay for any of the house bills? Did you!?!?!?! No, you didnt. Mum did. And did you ever know the reason why i never did ever want to get near you or talk to you this past few days? It's because i ever followed Mum to pay the bills and i asked Mum why your bills are so high. She told me that, "pasal ayah slalu call matair ayah kat kl." I dont know for sure whether it's true. But after that day mum told me this, i felt as if you are NOT my dad anymore. I dare not tell Sis. DAD, please change yourself. And not let history repeat itself. Please dont. I dont want you to fight with Mum and make things worse. Remember the time when Mum ever tried to kill herself because of your flirtatious manner. You even had the picture of the girl in your wallet. What has gotten into you, Dad? When Mum asked for a divorce, you refused to agree. But you still did this. Why would you? I dont want Mum to die. I really dont.

Oh, if you only read this Dad. You would really understand why i avoided you.

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Bye.